Jitsuroku: Naku made Bokorarete Hajimete Koi ni Ochimashita.

Bokokoi is a story about love-disability, gender identity and suffering. ------------------------------- The story starts with Pesuyamapopi, introducing her personal history with masochist kink since childhood which through time turned into a habit of abusing masturbation and her sexual desire that exists within violence acts. The subsequent stories are the self-realisation and individualisation of popi's own self, and through the participation in punch fetish hookups and other sexual relationships, finding the innate guilt, anxiety and gender identity that exists deep in his mind amid the process of incorporation of "sex". Human beings getting too philospohical about sex is often very silly and primal, yet outrageous and intellectualat the same time. The melancholy, separation and motivation within popi's mind guided me through her story as a storyteller but also as a friend; and although this manga, ultimately, is a desperate book that mourns for popi's lost romance rather than a self-help book compared to, for example, Nagata Kabi's lesbian loneliness series, it sums up prettily what one's search of sex looks like: unstructured, attempts and sufferings, cognitive enjoyments juxtaposed with the perhaps yet-to-be-known-by-ourselves identity. "Love is blind. It distorts something. It's something I never asked for." -- Joe (Nymphomaniac, 2013)