I'm the Only One Who Knows Your Body

This must be hate to love… because I hated Ryohei (the male lead) at first, but then I liked him at the end. I’m a little iffy on their relationship because of how it seemed a bit toxic and the distrees Yuuma had to deal with. However, the last chapter convinced me I like it. By the way I LOVE YUUMA HE’S SO EMMER FLIPPING CUTE!!!! This is a great read, amazing art, a very interesting story, but I understand the opposite view because it’s kinda iffy and insidious kind of with how the relationship comes to be and progresses until the the resolution.

Whether here or elsewhere, the general chat over this title has always the same: readers are feeling ambivalent, even outright suspicious about Ryohei, the seme. To me, this speaks more about how good the story writes him. He is so well-defined and believable as a playboy that even the narrative feels not enough to show his sincerity. For the record, I'm one of the ones who love this story. And I do appreciate how the story writes Ryohei. His character feels different from your typical hedonistic BL playboy. He's much more introspective than other characters of this archetype, more grounded, yet at the same time hefeels more thorny and distant. On paper he's the type of man who never refuses an invitation and never clings onto someone, but there's also a bit of resentment in his narration, as if he hates that lack of attachment. In that aspect, the romance he has with Yuuma, the uke, means more than just a typical 'playboy falls in love' narrative. The attachment feels sweet, oh yes, with a dash of yearning and 'why the fuck am I like this', but it also has layers. There's a visible attempt from both parties, but especially Ryohei, to understand each other and dispel their own faulty assumptions. I'd even go as far as say that Ryohei's complicated feelings is better written than Yuuma and his devoted yearning. Yuuma's inherent hopelessness and insecurity feels adequate for the narrative, but it's just perfunctory. There's little nuance behind it, unlike Ryohei. It does not help that Yuuma as a character is rather flat. Don't get me wrong; he's adorable and precious and he deserves the best from the world. But I also think Ryohei's increasing attachment to Yuuma would be more believable if we actually see more about Yuuma and his life and his interest. But I don't, or at least what I see is not enough. I can only see his devotion and yearning. The end result is that the story CAN, and to some, DOES look like Ryohei taking advantage of Yuuma's feelings. Me, personally, I love it. Ryohei is a well-written character, and I'm always a sucker for 'playboy falls in love' storyline. I also appreciate that the story doesn't use any dubcon or noncon.