I Love Your Cruddy...

First things first. If you know you can't handle more drama than you find in Citrus and its likes, I seriously don't think you should read this. For your own sake and the sake of your mental well-being. I know what I'm talking about. I'm not in a very good place right now, but I still read this. This is by far the darkest yuri I've read. I don't mean to say that it's the darkest ever since I've only read a few hundred yuri works. But it's still safe to say that it is one of the darkest works you could read in this genre.Also, one of the most well-written. I've never read anything as mesmerizing and revolting at the same time. You must know that the author is sadistically precise in delivering her point. She is ruthlessly effective in taking you from a deceptively silly introduction to the final that is Euripedian in its tragicness. Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii basically has zero positive characters. Almost anyone you see is very likely twisted in a very, very disturbing way. Even the secondary and supporting characters are clinically insane. What you find here is lots of Machiavellian ruthlessness and plotting, sadism, masochism, sexual deviations, bullying, depression, and all other elements one just must find in a manga that is set to destroy the gentle fibers of your soul. That said, don't expect to find your typical yandere here. One of the scariest things in this manga is just how realistic it is. It is only lightly sprinkled with this anime-like grotesque. The entire plot is a story of a slow-burn, exquisite, masochistically voluptuous descent into self-destruction, degradation, and the darkest depths of despair and madness. It is capable of causing Darren Aronofsky to have a bout of uncontrolled... well, exaltation, let's leave it at that. At the same time, it is almost poetic in its capability of darkening your mind. I've read all five volumes in one go, I was just hypnotized. Devastated, yes. But still, I couldn't stop. That's how well-written it is. You hate this manga, but you can't abandon it. This is exactly the sort of feeling that drives the main characters here. It's very ironic. Maybe even meta-ironic. You can't help but sympathize with monsters. So, again, I would totally recommend it. But you must be emotionally prepared.

I can always enjoy a disturbing story, I'm extremely open to that as a concept or exploration, but this didn't feel right in many levels. I have to begin with how much I hated "Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii". Let's begin with how the story fails from the very beginning. A pair of students make a fetish bond where one suffers while the other enjoys the sadistic moment, with ever-increasing stakes as one day they're both caught. WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS AT SCHOOL? LET ME TELL YOU WHY, PLOT. If the story cannot happen without the stupidest of setups, you failed horribly. Sure, they justifywith how "the danger" makes it exciting, well then why is it when they're caught, it's the end of the world? Stupid characters, making terrible decisions; that's the whole story. People wanting the worst out of a situation because "love", "fun", "care", "cute". This plot was terrible, so, why read it? That's on me, I got challenged to finish it, and I don't ever back down. Okay, so we got a terrible setup, are the characters worth following? No, not really. A bunch of manipulative girls that want fun out of a horrible situation, and they aren't even compelling to watch. From start to finish, idiots, all around stupid people that have so many solutions to every problem at the top of their hat, and they can't for the life of them think about that in particular, leading to a nonsensical ending. Since the beginning of the story focuses on the disturbing sadism, you don't get attached or interested, you just feel gross all over, and that never lets up, but was the beginning necessary to set the stage for the rest? I don't know. The art is one of those aspects that makes it feel even worse. I've read a very disturbing story in the past, but the art style was in line with what was shown. Presentation is important when showing these themes, and a story with cute drawings and designs, doing so many horrifying things, creates a violent whiplash that makes a reader feel terrible for even looking at this. That aspect created a self-hatred for even considering continuing to the next page or chapter, and I wasn't actually motivated to do it, this was a rage read. A terrible setup, with a gross presentation that makes one question the idea of just reading it. Did I enjoy my time? Absolutely not, I don't ever wanna remember this story, and I write the review to look back and think how something can get worse. If the writing was good, every aspect could've been forgiven, since now it feels earned to feel wrong, to feel disturbed. The story doesn't justify itself very well and as so, I can say this was a terrible experience but, I appreciate the attempt to tell such a distressing thing. I feel like a 3.4/10 for this final score, and please, don't read this, enjoy something else.

9/10 Really good manga. If you don't like sad mangas that make you feel bad that don't read this one. I thought this one was beautiful. I love how the romance escalates in this manga, and by no means is it a healthy romance but by God does it get you invested in it. This writer is an expert at making you root for the villain, seriously. My only major compliant is that this manga is a bit too melodramatic towards the end. No spoilers, but the amount of people who are revealed to be crazy by the end ofthe book starts to become difficult to believe lol. You're just like, damn is anyone in this novel sane? And while I liked the ending, I can't help but feel like it avoids the more obvious gut-puncher ending of having real life catch up with the girls, rather than letting them avoid it.